The Waiting

Well, Tom Petty was right. The waiting is the hardest part. It’s been about six weeks since I took the bar exam and while a lot has happened, waiting around for results has been the worst of it.

After you finish the exam, it’s a huge weight off your shoulders. The eight weeks of studying leading up to the exam suck but once it’s done, it’s done and there’s nothing you can do to change the outcome. The bar dreams, at least for me, stop and you feel like you can finally breath. But, waiting for those results is killer. Because there’s nothing you can do, all I’ve done is sit here and think over where I could have done better. I’m convinced my best wasn’t good enough this time around and I’ve come to terms with passing or failing.

I have two weeks left. Eleven days more specifically. It’s a countdown I’m half looking forward to ending and half terrified I’ll have to restart the process all over again. I’ve made it this far and even worst case, I will be licensed in 7 months so regardless I can’t be too upset. So here’s to distractions, projects, and a few panic attacks until April 22nd.

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